Time apparently evaporates. When I set this site up and when I started the blog option, I really intended and believed I would keep up with a blog to stay in touch, share thoughts and just write - since I do love that. But, life had other plans. My ADHD brain hyperfixated for about two minutes and then this website fell way by the wayside while life took over.
So where did life go? Well, most shopping or scheduling was done through the Etsy website. Which you can still find - but I promise that is not up to date either. The first and only blog was posted in September 2020. It is now June, 2022. One of the things that this means is that the blog was posted prior to or right after a meltdown of sorts. A meltdown that opened a lot of doors both inside & outside of me. If the time between that blog and now shows me anything, its how much change has occured, growth & something that I don't have the right words for - maybe they don't even exist.
When I created this site, I was on vacation in North Carolina. I was withdrawing from ADHD medication after having to stop it immediately to save myself from my heart exploding. I had quit my job midwithdrawl in full burn out. I had just lost my best friend and the person I had effectively shut most everyone else out of my life for. I was trying to be emotionally available for a teenage daughter who was struggling without letting her see my fear. I could go into more, but I think thats enough overshare for one blog. I was fragile, I was self destructive and I was very, very, much alone. My head was my worst enemy. When I got home from vacation, I felt like I could not possibly go any further down than I already was.
When I started LSOL in April of that year, 2020, a friend had asked me if I wanted to meet Lilith. I had blown him off, mostly. Laughing to myself as I did not work with Spirits on any level. Part of me thought he was messing with me, part of me thought he had lost it, and part of me - the deepest part, knew that if I said yes - everything changed. Don't ask me how I knew that, but I did - even though it may not have been a conscious thought at the time. But when I returned home, I got up one morning and in tears, just realized I simply could not feel this way anymore. I couldn't take my head anymore. A head that since stopping the medication had come back even louder than before. So I sent a message. And my personal practice, path, my life - changed. I wouldn't go back. Even now, the woman who sent that message - in complete desperation, grasping for anything - and the woman who sits here typing this blog... They may as well be two completely separate beings.
In the Winter of 2021 I went back to school - directing my focus on a Masters in Metaphysical Sciences / Spiritual Counseling. I couldn't take the fact that counseling was so inaccessible to so many people. I couldnt continue on a Clinical path, I had to do something that fit. In the summer of 2021, the business went from online to in person with many vendor shows. Those shows continued for the next few months. I allowed myself to be open, and accept help, from my friend Brittani who has been an absolute blessing in my life. She balanced me at vendor shows, kept me focused in crowds of energy, and encouraged the growth of the products. In November of 2021, a physical location became a possibility. In December of 2021 - we made it a reality, opening physically on December 19th 2021. You all that came, friends, family and strangers a like, sold me almost completely out of inventory in one night. Now, the physical location allows me to offer Spiritual Counseling / Coaching sessions - many of which people have chosen to use as Mentorship opportunities in their own Craft. It allows me to have a private room also for Energy Work sessions, to bring healing, balancing and centering to you. And, best of all it has given space for group classes, rituals and other gatherings. From opening night, through now, you all continue to show up. I see new faces weekly as well as familiar ones.
It has been a busy six months. Not only opening the location, needing a lot more product, providing services and trying to figure out how to run a business, but in my personal practice timing just happened to say - NOW - for yet another next step in my growth on many levels. What it shows me, looking back, is that as soon as I leapt - things started changing. At first it wouldn't have been that noticeable but looking back I can see exactly how fast and how far.
Nothing about any of it has been "easy" per say. But the things that are easy are usually not the things that are worth fighting for. So, hang in there with me while I get this website updated! You can soon be able to purchase and schedule on here - for right now, if you are local - come see me! 1665 N. Main St Ext Butler PA 16001.
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